How do you feel about people ignoring you? Most don’t like it. I can’t stand having a conversation with people and have them zone out on me. I have to say something like, “Earth is calling, you can come back now.”
But the one thing that bothers me most is not being ignored but being shot down as well. I have been going back and forth between college majors for quite some time. I have had all different ideas on what I want to do. Being as confused as I am, I always wanted to talk to my mom about what I wanted to do.
I told her that I was considering an art major or creative writing, and she told me that I would never be able to make a career out of that. She told me that I had a brain to do something better.
Help me to Understand
Why must you tear me down?
Why must you egg me on?
I try to tell you one thing,
you reply another.
It hurts so much each time.
Yet you don’t seem to care.
Do you even notice,
the effect your words have?
Why can’t you leave me be?
Why can’t you see I try?
Help me to understand.
Writing and drawing are two of the most important things in my life so it hurt to be told that I wasn’t good enough at it. But at least it had narrowed down my options for a major, there was quite a massive list. At one point I was debating between education, creative writing, meteorology, and astronomical and aeronomical engineering. Finally I settled on teaching.
To this day I am contemplating changing my major, well from an early childhood education teacher to an elementary education teacher. I love being around children. I love simply being with them and telling them stories and playing with them.
My Future
Am I scared to move on,
Or just leaving everything behind?
Am I frightened everything will be gone,
Or am I just losing my mind?
Everyone talks of all the choices to make,
They say it’s time to choose.
I fear the chances I’ll have to take,
But am I more afraid of what I’ll lose?
Even now as I write this, Sam ignores me. I pointed something out and she totally ignored me. Maybe I just wasn’t talking loud enough, but she did respond to me. But that’s okay we’re both out of it. (No harm intended Sam! It just happened to fit in with what I was writing about)
Other than me poking fun at Sam, have you ever had an experience where you were totally ignored? How did it make you feel? What did you do?
I agree completely with you. Whenever I want to discuss something with my mom, she will zone me out sometimes becuase I talk so much. Its annoying to not be listened to because sometimes it can take a lot to build up the courage to open up about something that is bothering you, and then to have someone shut you down is really hurtful. I don't know if you ever have that problem but its the worst!
ReplyDeleteI was voted most quiet in my High School, funny, but sometimes its not ignoring, just listening. Sometimes when i am mad at someone, I cannot say anything. Not till I calm down, and that it when they know something is wrong. And for being ignored, I used to hate that. Because my sister does it constantly, but I have learned to understand.
ReplyDeleteWell I apologize Colleen, I heard half of what you said, so do I get half credit? Its been a long day, but that shouldn't be an excuse. I guess in this day in age its even more important to pay attention because someone can easily go and blog about you (I'm just kidding, Collen was very nice and asked me permission to talk about me, she is a good person) It is important to listen to people because it can really make a difference in their day. I will try to work on my listening skills. So you can help Colleen, next time I don't listen snap your fingers at me or something.
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